Not-So-Academic Research Paper

Hello all so another update should be coming soon. In previous posts I have discussed this research paper I had been working on a lot, and since then I have had a few requests to share it. Below is a link to my google drive document of the paper. It is rather lengthy at 16 pages, so do not feel compelled to read it. I also want to warn you that although I have called it a research paper it is far from an academic paper (I don't even have citations gasp!), and isn't written beautifully or anything fancy like that. The purpose of the paper was more so to learn about the history of the Bay Area and to explore various needs and ministry sites in the area. You might want to check it out if you would like to learn more about the history of San Francisco and Oakland, what I feel are some of the biggest needs in the city, or if you would like to learn what are some other ministry sites I might be interested in working with. If anyone decides to read it and has any questions about anything feel free to send me an email. =) Enjoy!

https://docs.google.com/folder/d/0Bxyd6xOnh0jgbzhrZU9RWDRSUzQ/edit

Front Page Fame

I think some of you may have seen this on facebook, but I thought I would put it up on my blog incase you aren't the facebooking type. Our first group made their home town newspaper's front page! It's pretty exciting because not only did they make make the front page, but I am the front page with them! It's pretty much my one and only moment of fame in life. The link to the article is below the picture if you desire to read it. 

http://www.lassennews.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=8596%3Amiddle-school-students-serve-in-bay-area&catid=2%3Alassencountynewsheadline&Itemid=1#.UIbVhySsJy4.facebook

Lesson #86325 and Still Learning

This weekend a powerful message was hammered back into me in a slightly uncomfortable incredibly humbling way. This message I speak of is the message that prayer is powerful and that when we allow God to move great things happen. Although I know these things in my head I sadly have to be constantly reminded of them.

This journey of rediscovery began on Friday night when the junior high youth group appeared on the scene as hyper and chatty as ever. As we drove over to the restaurant the noise level in the car was well beyond 140 decibels and was causing my head to pound with discomfort. When I asked them to be quiet so I could call the restaurant and tell them we were going to be running late one kid’s response was, “it’s impossible for me to be quiet” and he continued on yelling through my call. Not only was I annoyed at the current situation, but also I already dreaded the response to my request for 2 hours of silence during the prayer tour later that night. The night went on and my attitude continued to get worse. As the prayer tour began the talking, racially offensive comments, and spastic movements did not despite my pleas for silent prayer. By the time we got home I had tried every method in the book that I knew of to get these children to be quiet. Any ideas that I had about my growing patience were shattered as I stood in front of these kids restraining myself from breaking every rule in the handbook. I busted in the door about to break. I couldn’t do 2 more days of this.

            I lay in bed that night unable to sleep from the frustration that continued to surge throughout my body. My head pounded as I lay dreading the next day with these kids. Even though it was incredibly late, I got up and brought this situation before the Lord. I prayed out to Him in complete despair for I knew on my own strength I could not continue through this weekend. As I prayed I was filled with comfort. I texted a number of individuals I knew were praying for me back home and asked them to really bathe my weekend in prayer. I asked them to pray for me to be filled with patience I didn’t know I was capable of and for God to do a miracle and prove me wrong about this group.

            The next morning I woke up feeling better but still a bit unsure. As the day continued I began to not recognize the group or myself. The same students that I thought I was going to murder the night before were becoming some of my favorite in the group. Their goofiness and energy was no longer so annoying to me, but was instead causing me joy and bringing out my absolutely ridiculous side. I found myself responding to situations with patience and in ways I didn’t understand. As I began to respect and enjoy the group more, so did they respect me more than the previous day. When I would have to ask them to sit or quiet down they actually listened. This was not the same group from the night before and I was not the same person as the day before.

 The incredibly fast turn around from the night before made it so clear that this was not on my own doing. There is nothing that I did to make this group better, in fact I could not have had a worse attitude about them, but God showed me truly how great He is. Through all the prayer and God’s great work the entire weekend turned around and I had an amazing time. God had to bring me to utter despair and break me in order to open up the situation for Him to step in and do great things. It is so great to be reminded of the beauty that occurs when our broken selves are humbled to the point that we stop trying to do it on our own and instead let God work. 

Mah Mailing Address

I also wanted to give everyone my mailing address so you can send me lots of great love notes! If you ever feel so compelled to send me mail my mailing address is below: 

CSM

Rachel Rey 

PO Box 72397

Oakland, CA 94612

Another Novel-like Update

Hello all! This week has been a much-loved slower schedule. We have spent most of the week working on creating monthly goals and key result areas for ourselves to focus our time here with CSM on. I have also been spending a lot of time working on the research paper they are having us do to get to know the city. The main purpose of this paper is to familiarize us with the Bay Area by starting with the history of San Francisco and Oakland. The next section is to identify needs of the Bay Area that can be met by non-profits or the church. The final section is to describe 3-5 organizations that already exist that are working to fill these needs. From this paper we are to gain a better understanding of where we might be interested in serving this year. Although a paper sounds like school, something that freaked my roommate Kat out greatly, I love that we are really being pushed to understand where we are serving. Through our weekly reflection papers, assigned reading, this research paper, and other writing assignments we are really being pushed to learn and reflect on our experiences.

We also spent time last week serving at a couple of organizations. On Tuesday we went with a group from Salvation Army to deliver sandwiches, juice boxes, chips, and gallon jugs of water to the “homes” of homeless individuals in homeless camps under many bridges in San Francisco. . Trey from the Salvation Army was such a real example for me of what Christ-like urban ministry looks like. His love for God was so apparent in the way that he interacted with the people on the streets. Despite the fact that many of these people suffered from clear mental and addictive illnesses, were dirty, smelled of body odor and urine, and called the shelter of bridges home, they were Trey’s great friends. He greeted each of them with a hug and used their name as he so authentically asked them how they were doing. As they continued to talk like old friends, Trey would not only meet the need he set out to fill that night, but he would inquire about any other needs they had. He filled their tummies with the sandwiches, talked with them, and when another issue would come up he would offer to do anything necessary to help with it. When the issue of their things being taken from their camp by city officials and moved to a junkyard came up, without hesitation he offered to take anyone who wanted to go claim their stuff that Friday morning. He also offered to bring paperwork for housing programs to a few individuals he talked to. When one person shared that they were not feeling well he offered to bring a doctor into the camp to check them out. With each individual he desired to meet all of his or her needs regardless of the difficulty on his part that it would take. Trey showed God to these people not because he screamed about God on the street corner or forced them to pray with him, but just by showing up and caring for each and every one of them the love of God was apparent through him.

            In American society we are taught to live by schedules, to work hard in order to gain success, and to plan every minute of our days in order to reach maximum productivity. In urban culture this way of living doesn’t exist. Despite my background, in order to do effective ministry I can’t live by my perfectly scheduled life. Trey allowed the Spirit to lead him and because of that he could connect with the individuals on the street and meet their needs effectively. He wasn’t concerned with getting all the sandwiches delivered to as many people as possible; he was concerned with connecting with them and showing God’s love for them through that. In a conversation with Trey he said that the best advice he ever got was “just show up and to show up consistently.” By his continuous desire and commitment to meet any of their needs, I could see him acting out this advice. I feel as though this experience with Trey delivering sandwiches was incredibly impactful on my understanding of urban ministry. I was challenged to let go of my schedule, ideas, and plan for this year and to let the Spirit of God guide me. I was challenged to be aware to the Spirit’s calling and willing to meet people’s needs regardless of the difficulty or my plan for the day. I am incredibly thankful for all that Trey does with Salvation Army to serve the needs of these people and the way in which his ministry was a ministry to me as well. Pray for me that I will be able to let go of my desire to plan out this year and accomplish something great through it. Pray that I will be able to serve the city like Trey does by letting the Spirit lead my ministry.

We also went to Bay Area Rescue Mission, or BARM for short, to work with their after school program called King’s Club again on Friday. Again I loved working with Sister Marshelle and the other staff as we played with these children. Since it was a Friday we didn’t have schoolwork to do, so I got to play pretend that we were a dog family with a group of five 2nd graders. I absolutely love getting to connect with these children as I get to be my super goofy childlike self and also getting to connect on a deeper level with some of the older students. I still strongly desire to serve at this ministry site on a regular basis and plan to spend 3 days there this week to continue to develop an understanding of all their ministry does. Please continue to ask God to make it clear to me whether or not He wants me to serve at King’s Club throughout this year.

As my search for a church continues I went to a church this Sunday called Oakland City Church and I absolutely loved it. They don’t have a church building and meet only on Sunday nights within another church’s building. I have never experienced a church that was this multi cultural. I honestly could not say what the most highly represented ethnicity was. Due to their range of ethnicities they also had a much more gospel style worship, which I love. They sang a majority of well-known contemporary Christian songs, only they sang them much more upbeat in a gospel style. I felt like we were really rejoicing the good news of God through our worship. Although it wasn’t the head pastor speaking, the preaching was sound. I look forward to experiencing the head pastor speak. After the service there was a Raiders tailgate potluck dinner. As soon as the service let out multiple people came up to me and introduced themselves, talked to me for a while, and encouraged me to stay for the dinner. I decided to stay for the dinner and after no more than 2 seconds of me standing there awkwardly looking for a table after getting my food, the head pastor came up to me. After we talked for a little while, he introduced me to a table of incredibly friendly people that I sat and chatted with for the remainder of the dinner. After talking for a while one of the girls asked me if I would want to go to her home group and took down my information to let me know more about it. This church experience was such an answer to prayer. Being such a people person and being without a strong community around me I was beginning to feel lonely out here. The community at this church that I am already starting to get invested into after only one visit is God’s way of showing me that he hears my distress and is using them to comfort me. God is so good!

This weekend Kat and I are hosting another group of 15 junior high students. We are going to be leading separate serving groups but will be together for dinner and debrief times. The group is coming on Friday and will be here through Sunday. Please pray for energy and wisdom to lead them effectively for both Kat and I. Pray that we will allow God to lead them instead of trying to rely on our own strength to lead them.

I guess it is becoming my trend to write incredibly long posts. I don’t think I can get myself to write on here more than once a week, so I am probably just going to continue to write long posts on a weekly basis and you are just going to have to deal with it :P. Rest assured that, as my schedule gets more regular as I get plugged into a ministry, church, and are out of this busy month for hosting, my posts should reduce in size. I hope you are all doing fabulous! Thank you all for your support and prayer for me throughout this year. Love you all like crazy!

Meet all of our CSM staff here in the San Francisco Bay Area. From left to right, the first girl is Becky. Becky is another apprentice that is going on almost 3 years here between hosting and her first year apprenticeship last year. As an apprentice she does many of the same things Kat and I do, but she also has a much more leadership position and works as a mentor for Kat and I. She is great! So next in the blue is Kim and next to her is her husband Jason, who was squatting so he isn't actually that short. Kim and Jason are the city directors here in the Bay Area. They do much of the behind the scenes planning for the groups. Although they are our bosses they are really more so our friends. The little cutie in the pink is their one year old baby named Stephanie. When Stephanie comes into the office it makes work much more enjoyable. Next is me! Then to the right of me is Kat, my roommate and the other apprentice. This picture was taken outside of the church building that we work at and where Kat and I live. Although you can't see anything besides brick at least it is some pretty cool brick! 

A Little Something for Your Visual Enjoyment

I am not very good at remembering to take pictures but I am going to try and remember to take pictures throughout the year so I can post them on here. I haven't done the best job so far but I will improve because I care that much about you guys! Aren't I such a sweetheart. =)

Packed up and ready to trek across the country. This is my interpretation of packing lightly... 

Some of the beautiful countryside along our drive. Oh how I love America! 

This is Utah's definition of a rest stop. We thought it was too funny to not take a picture of. Going to the bathroom in this smelly outhouse without running water made me appreciate the good ole rest stops in Michigan even more. 

Meet the other apprentice and my new roommate named Kat in our room for the year! 

Wahoo I Made It!

Greetings all from sunny beautiful California! After an incredibly long 4-day journey across the country with my two amazing parents I arrived in the Bay Area two weeks ago. Thank you all for praying for our safety as we traveled. We had a great trip and I loved seeing some of our beautiful country while talking and jamming to some tunes with the two greatest people I know. Mom and Dad I cannot thank you two enough for taking time away from work, for spending the time and money to go with me, and for all the love and care you have poured out to me all these years.

            After getting settled, the city directors Kim & Jason did not waste any time preparing the other apprentice named Kat and I. We hosted our first group last weekend so the normal 2-week training was completed in 4 insane days. Part of our training consisted of learning the city by mapping out everywhere we had to go and dictating directions to the other city staff that pretended to not know how to get anywhere. We also visited and practiced framing the various service sites that we will be working with throughout the year. We also just had to learn a lot of logistical aspects of hosting which required us to do a lot of reading from our over 300-page handbook. The most enjoyable part of our training has been visiting all of the ethnic restaurants that we take groups to each night for dinner. My favorite place by far is our Indian restaurant in SF called Naan N’ Curry. I loved ordering in Spanish and stumbling through a conversation in Spanish with our waitress at the Nicaraguan restaurant we take groups too. It is so great getting to eat amazing food every night and since it is part of our training CSM pays for it. =)   

My roommate/ the other apprentice Kat and I hosted the group last weekend together and despite our fear beforehand it actually went very well. We had a group of 10 junior highers from the small town of Susanville, California. They were a great first group and were gracious to us for any small first time mess-ups. We went with the group to a day home for children ages 2-5 in the rough area of West Oakland. The day home is such a light in a dark place as they provide fabulous childcare for children of low-income families. We also took them to the San Francisco Food Bank where we sorted rice and got to converse with some of the other volunteers. We also passed out socks and hygiene kits in an area in San Francisco where a large number of homeless individuals hang out. Along with giving them something to meet their tangible need, we also got the opportunity to pray with some of them who asked for prayer. The highlight of my weekend was getting the opportunity to pray with 3 homeless individuals. As we held hands and came before the King in the middle of this busy street and prayed for one another I felt the physical presence of the Holy Spirit. Even writing about this experience now gives me chills. Despite the group leaders pleas to not do it, the group also got the opportunity to experience something we call “City Search”. City Search is essentially a block of time where the group gets to experience the city and the complications of living on the street firsthand as they walk around the Tenderloin district of San Francisco. They are given questions they can ask individuals as well as two dollars each for lunch. Although 2 dollars may sound like a decent amount of money, in the expensive city of San Francisco there is very little that this money can buy.  They are to engage in conversation with individuals and learn about God’s children that may be very different than what they are used to. Kat and I did not join them on this activity but we did get to experience it for ourselves during our training as the two of us got to meet some fascinating, hilarious, and intelligent individuals that call either government housing or the streets home.

After the group left we were back to more training. Last week was much more relaxed training although it still consisted of many 10-12 hour days. We spent this week visiting more organizations and restaurants we will be working with. We also spent time taking various personality tests and discussing our strengths and weaknesses as CSM staff members and how we can best work together through that. We also discussed conflict management and learned how each of us views and handles conflict. It may be because I am interested in Psychology, but I absolutely loved that learning not only about ourselves but also about the people we will be working with was a part of our training.

We had another group here this weekend but Kat and I were not the primary hosts for this group. The 2-year apprentice named Becky and another city host from a year ago came up from LA to host this group. Although we were not in charge of hosting them we still participated in some of the activities they did so we could experience more of the organizations. We served at a dinning room in Oakland with the group as well as delivered meals with an organization called Project Open Hand. Project Open Hand delivers hot and frozen meals to elderly individuals as well as to individuals living with HIV/AIDS or other diseases that prevent them from being able to attend another meal program. This experience was incredibly eye opening as we got to go into the SRO Hotels that many low-income individuals live in. The Single Room Occupancy Hotels or SROs for short are structured like dorm rooms where each individual or family gets a single room that isn’t much bigger than a dorm room. The SRO Hotels have community bathrooms and usually share a kitchen with their entire building. Many of the SROs were built after the 1906 earthquake in San Francisco as temporary housing for individuals and have remained as low-income housing. Individuals can rent an SRO from anywhere between $400-$800 dollars a month. In the Tenderloin district where we were delivering these meals many individuals call an SRO home. Walking into these buildings gave me a glimpse into the lives of many individuals and families that are living in the Tenderloin district. Music blared from many of the rooms and smoke billowed out from under the doors of many rooms. The group did other activities yesterday but Kat and I got our first day off since we got here. I enjoyed the much-needed rest as well as enjoyed learning the neighborhood on a long run around the area.

            I have really loved getting to meet some of the amazingly strong and loving individuals at many of these organizations. One woman named Marshelle or as the kids call her Sister Marshelle is particularly remarkable. This woman works with the Bay Area Rescue Mission in Richmond at their after school drop in center called King’s Club. King’s Club gives children in grade school up through youth in high school a safe place to come after school to socialize and work on homework as well as learn the good news about Jesus. The love this woman has for these children as well as the expectations she holds the students to is spectacular. Part of my apprenticeship with CSM is to find an organization to work with part time throughout the year. I am heavily considering working with Bay Area Rescue Missions through King’s Club throughout the year. Please pray for me that I will be given clarity on whether or not this organization is where God has me.

             I am sorry for how long this post is and I am even more sorry for how long it took me to write on this. Rest assured that I did not die on the way out here but instead have just been incredibly busy. Things should be slowing down here as we wrap up training, so I will have more time to keep all of you updated about my time in the Bay Area. Overall it has been amazing learning about the city and getting to know all the wonderful people I will be working with this year. God is good! Please continue to pray for me. Specifically pray for my health as the late nights and early mornings have caused me to develop a pretty bad sore throat and cold. Also pray for some of the organizations I talked about and for the city as a whole. If you got this far than you must really love me! =) Anyway that’s all for now folks! Hope you all are doing great!